Lost

Yesterday I met my old friend from MRSM. It was a fun hang out with her. She looked different from the last time we met which was a few years ago. We talked about ourselves a lot. We talked about our other old friends too which were majorly married. Then she talked about her goals. Then it suddenly hit me. I have no goals.

I only want happiness in mind but that's not real goal. I mean, where I want to be in the next five years? I have no plan. She said she wanted to marry a loving husband in two years time but me? I have no plan to get married anytime soon and also in coming few years too. 

She told me she could not wait to finish her final project so that she could focus on her career because she knew what she wanted to become. How bout me? I don't know what I want to become. I don't know if becoming a lecture is what I really ever wanted. I've tried, trust me to find myself but I'm still lost. All I know I'm living in a cruel world where I don't know if I ever been accepted to find my place.

I'm so frustrated with myself. Suddenly I feel like I'm a shame for a person who always love me. Sorry for I have nothing for you to be proud of. I was before but not anymore. What happen to a girl who always know what she is doing?  I really really don't know. 

I am sorry.

Used Products

Hi everyone! First of all I would like to apologize for bad lighting pictures and with zero editing skills , I don't know how to make them look better. I try to get as much as natural lighting I can. But with recent weather of raining and next minutes it's nice and sunny, it's really hard to predict. 

 

 

  

So move to the products that I've used, I'm not a products junkie as I'm lazy to apply them all but here are some that I manage to use in daily basis. I have this yellow basket where I keep products that I think worth for previews and comments.

• Loreal Anti-Hair Fall Shampoo really works well for my hair. It makes my hair feel so smooth and I always buy the big size as it last more than a month to me. 

• As what I've said before, my skin is so sensitive that I can't use normal soap for bathing as my skin will turn red and itchy. Eucerin Wash lotion is specially for sensitive skin like mine! It works well and leave my skin without drying out but the down part is it's a bit pricey.

• Garnier Pure Active Foam really did a great job to my face and I kept repurchasing this. Pimples vanish just a day only!

• Veet shower hair removal cream doesn't works for me. It leaves my skin so dry even though it comes with moisturize complex. Not gonna buy this again for sure.

• Reason why I bought this Clean & Clear face wash is because the colour is so attractive with green apples scent. But too bad it doesn't works well as it looks. Pimples starting to grow after I wash my face with this.

• Both spray deodorant from Nivea don't last long to me. I also don't like the smell of them. No repurchasing.

• The Nivea deodorant stick works just fine to me. Not too bad but not too good.

• The liquid deodorants works the best and my favorite is the invisible for black and white as it leave no mark on my shirts and blouses. Good!

• Both Vaseline and Nivea body lotion works just fine for me. They don't absorb much on my skin and sticky which I hate it the most. Not gonna buy these again. 

• Simple Oil Balancing Moisturizer works like magic on my face. It absorb quickly to my skin and prevent my face from oily.

• Bio-Oil. No words for this but PERFECT! It reduces the dark spot and scar but too pricey.

• I've been wearing contact lens for about five months and this Complete Solution works well. They don't irritate my eyes and did great job in cleaning my lens. Bought two size. One for my room and one for me to carry wherever I go.

• I don't know if this Ayur Slim product works well on me. I only eat it for a month and don't repurchase it because I believe in exercise rather relying on diet pills. But it still helps me with digestion though.

• The red small bottle is a cream lotion for super sensitive skin and works like magic. It's really hard to find it in pharmacies. I have to order it two weeks earlier before I get it.Plus it's only RM7! 

• Aqua Lily Body Mist from Body Shop is my current favorite. It smells so good and it last me the whole day!

• Sweet Honesty from Avon is always my all time favorite scent. Definitely gonna use this for the rest of my life.

Thanks for reading!

Fit Malaysia 2014

Hi guys! I know it's a late update but with works & study & moving to a new house, it's hard for me to steal the time to blog. So sorry bout that. On early of September my sister & I went to a fitness program held at Dataran Merdeka. We decided to wake up early but well it's hard to wake up early especially on weekends. Who does that anyway? LOL.

We went there by LRT and stopped at Masjid Jamek. It was 10mins of walking distance from LRT Masjid Jamek to Dataran Merdeka. 

 

It got so many programs that we could join but since Nina & I love Zumba so much, we decided to go for it.

  

We were very lucky because the day was great & we got the chance to meet new people with different backgrounds. 

 

Everyone seemed to have a great time there and to my surprise the place was rubbish free. Everyone were acting very good by throwing the rubbish in the dustbins that were provided by the organizer. 

 

One of the best reason we joined this program was because everything were free! We got free Revive Isotonic drink , mineral water and food for free. 

 

Later after we were done with Zumba, we met a few of students who were doing interviews for their school projects. So here's the picture of Nina being interviewed by them. Both of them are Lim Kok Wing students & they were very nice!

 

The place got so much things going on at the same time. There was a group of musician playing their drums & everything. We watched it for a few minutes & enjoyed the music & it was fun! 

 

Picture of Nina trying to capture the nice view of sky.

 

After 4 hours, we were very hungry. So Nina & me went for our lunch & later we headed home because we were both very exhausted. 

The best part of this day was, I got to spend with Nina for our sisters bonding and had a lot fun. It was a great day & I'm blessed!

Thanks!

New house Smaller Room

 Hey everyone!

Gosh it seems like ages since I posted the last post! Life is like hectic lately for me with work and study. I'm still on my exam week and will be taking my next paper on this coming 21st August while struggling to pay for college. I have decided not to take any loan for college but so far it has been pretty good. 

My family and I will be moving to a new house by the end of this month which I'm so excited about. But the only bit 'thumbs down' is I will be getting smaller room and my sisters will get bigger room. The reason why they get the bigger one is because they share it together and I, well don't like to share haha. So I'm gonna make the best of it!

I want my room to be cozy because I love it when it's raining with hot chocolate and books on my bed. It's a very perfect moment for me and I do enjoy my own company. I want my wall room to be painted with soft color and I'm thinking mint green will be great. And the best part of room decoration is the lights!

 

These flowery lights are so pretty and rise up the feminine side of every lady. Where can I find these?

Look at those lights ! It's romantic and dreamy. 

Since my room is small so I need to switch to single bed and I'm starting to save my money so I can buy a new one. I'm surveying where I can get cheap single bed and if you guys know where I can find it except on Ikea , please share. 

This picture gives great inspiration for me to decorate my room with lights on the top of the bed and plus with scented lights. Perfecto!

Thanks for reading!

p/s Pictures are from Pinterest

Shy and afraid

Hi everyone. How’s your weekend? Today is the 11^th day of 2014 so I think it’s not too late for me to wish you guys HAPPY NEW YEAR!

 Of course, when it comes to a new start everyone has their own resolutions. I wanted to blog about my new resolutions too but we all know that sooner or later they will be thrown out from the windows.  But I’m not saying you can’t have your resolutions but consistence is the key which of course it’s not easy to be done.  

As I look through my 2013, it was pretty awesome for me. I wanted to list one by one of them but I’ll bore you guys.  But last week I realized that 2013 had taught me one of the most important things in life.  

Some might don’t know that I was really-really a shy person and afraid. Blame it on my old lifestyle but as I grow older, it gets better but I’m still afraid when I go to new place, new zone or new person that I just randomly meet.

It happened when I went to a shop and wanted to ask about how I can use my membership card somewhere else. But I was too afraid that I will embarrass myself in front bunch people that will think I was such a lame person. So I ended up just “never mind I’ll google it at home” and then I forgot about it.

It happened again and again whenever I went to a new zone. Like in a hotel when I wanted to drink cappuccino but I didn’t know how to use the machine and there were like 7-8 person standing nearby there enjoying the morning coffee drink.  And again I failed myself by saying “never mind” instead of just ask one of them how I can use the machine. 

I went home and I was frustrated with myself. Later I got a job and many foreigners from Australia, USA, Indonesia, Yemen and more work there too. They are very friendly and whenever we were in the same lift they will ask “how are you, how’s your day” and such. And one thing I realized was they are not afraid to ask question even though it’s the silliest question ever. It’s a new place, new zone, new people but they are not afraid to smile and ask me any random questions.

And now I can proudly say that I’m not the old me anymore. Whenever  I feel afraid and shy I keep telling myself that to always speak my mind, be confident, don’t afraid to be wrong because everyone did it also and they can think whatever they want because I’m helping myself to be better me.

Thank you for reading. XOXO.